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Finding A Way

This was written on November 28, 2016

My day today? Singkatnya, gw berburu cerita.
Galau coy wkwk mendadak bahasa Indo. Yowes lah ya. Galau nya bukan apa2, memikirkan hidup aja tiba2 dari semalem. I know I want to be an entrepreneur. But next? What field? What my contribution will be? What is my dream, my vision? I don't know what to answer for those questions.
Gw ngechat banyak orang buat minta cerita mereka dan mencari insights on what I should do. Bahkan salah satu temen gw, temen SMA yang gw tau dia udah menemukan tujuan hidup dia, nelpon gw lewat LINE Call tengah malem untuk berbagi cerita dia. Aih :") 
Siang2nya gw ngobrol sama temen gw yg lain, anak MRI, lagi2 yang udah menemukan tujuan hidup dia. Gw juga minta cerita dia: apa mimpi dia dan gimana caranya dia bisa sampe ke mimpi yang dia pegang sekarang. "Wah harus cerita hidup gw ini." wkwk gapapa lah yha ehe
terakhir, gw cerita ke salah satu temen deket gw di MRI. Yg ini sama kyk gw, lagi masa2nya galau …
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